A little more than a year ago, I found myself going to confession with a priest friend of mine. At some point, he asked me if I had confessed the same sins over and over. I thought about it, and yes - there were a few things that came up each and every time I went to confession. Looking back and being honest about it, by it's very nature - something that happens over and over even though you try to stop it would be considered habitual or maybe even addictive. We find all sorts of reasons to justify our sin - why its "ok" or "normal". We accept our sin as part of "human nature" and just something "people do". God made us "good" - but we turn to evil things.
He began to explain how I was likely being attacked by spiritual forces and encouraged me to look back and find when the doors were opened to such things. I thought way back - WAY back and identified some areas where I needed healing. He walked me through a process of "renunciation" in which I listed out everything I struggled with. Renunciation means "to turn away from" or to "refuse to participate in".
In the name of Jesus, I renounce _______.
In the name of Jesus, I renounce the lie that ________.
In the name of Jesus, I accept the truth that _________.
In the name of Jesus, I forgive ______ for _______.
I just went through and listed out everything I struggled with. I looked down and saw the lies that I had in my head - lies that my sin would "never" go away - lies that I was "always" going to sin in this way, and that it was part of me". Lies that I would never receive healing - lies that I was unworthy of receiving healing. I forgave people in my past that I thought I forgave but never really did. As he prayed over me, I literally felt like I was raising up out of my chair and floating sideways. My chest was heavy, and through is prayer, that heaviness lifted and was removed. I was changed - something happened that I can't explain. He said to me as we finished - "The process of being unbound does not immediately result in freedom - it results in weakness". Before the prayer, I was bound by sin. It had me in its clutches, it took up space in my soul and as the spirits were removed, it left space open. That space was now available for God. In the name of Jesus - the chains were broken!
over the next few months, my struggle went from 90% to 10%. I was tempted - and each time I went through my prayer - In the name of Jesus, I renounce _______. As I found new things that I struggled with, I would pray In the name of Jesus, I renounce____.